She’d always dreamt of feeling this way
Yet she never imagined it would be so strong
How could she be afraid of this emotion
She’d been waiting for so long?
She was surprised at the jealousy
That consumed her, hit her hard
Sharp and painful, it cut through her
Like a broken and serrated glass shard
She was surprised at the impatience
Counting down seconds for one call
She hated how time crawled by
As minute by minute her calm facade began to fall
She was surprised at her weakness
At becoming a victim of many a cliché
Neither being able to reign in her emotions
Nor her feelings convey
She was surprised at how her confidence broke
How she couldn’t muster up the courage to simply speak
She was not one to blabber and sputter
She hated how she suddenly felt meek
She was surprised at how easily tears came
When memories tormented her
And the intense yearning she felt
Only surprised her further
She’d always dreamt of feeling this way
Yet she never imagined she would lose all sanity
Lost in the emotion so powerful that it made her weak
How could she be surprised when she’d waited for this an eternity?
