Lost in the Unknown.

My laugh is lost as I lament,
And all my smiles dissolve into a sigh,
I seem to have lost the cheerful moment,
And I don’t know the reason why...

Doubts and fears flood my mind,
Reality seems like a miserable lie,
Joy seems afar and hard to find,
And I wish I knew why...

My thoughts turn dark and depressed,
Tears are beyond my control as my eyes silently cry,
Hope is ruthlessly repressed,
And I have no idea why...

I don’t find cheer even in a soulful song,
Mirth, here only an instant ago, has bid goodbye,
For that merry moment my heart does long,
It’s gone, lost, as is the reason why...

I can’t stop smiling, and I am incredibly happy,
That time now seems like a dream gone by,
I can’t find my reason to be,
And I can’t find the reason why...

I’m laughing, my eyes twinkling,
And inexplicably, I feel a void, lonely, torn,
Some may call it nothing more than a mood swing,
But I know that I am lost in the unknown.

Apple of my I !!

I truly think that one of life’s best moments is when a song that you’ve been thinking of suddenly starts playing on the radio or the TV. And what’s even better is when my I-pod recognizes my mood and seems to play all the right songs at the right time. Usually left on the shuffle mode, to fend for itself, my I-pod seems to be tuned into my moods pretty well. When I’m feeling low it will play a peppy number to lift my spirits, and when I’m happy, catchy dance numbers set the pace. Maybe all the time it spends wired to my head has paid off! Don’t believe me? Consider this:

Flashback...
I have had a fight last night and I have woken up in a pathetic, super-depressed mood... It’s one of those days where you wish the sun hadn’t come out and that you could just curl up under your blanket and disappear... But, life must go on... and I’m forced to get out of my cosy, comfortable bed and get into my day. A day which seems nothing more than a monotonous routine today... I go through the motions rather mechanically; my happy mood and cheer seem to be locked up in an impenetrable corner of my mind...

I step out with i-pod firmly in my ear to transport me to another world at least for a while. I hit on “Shuffle Songs” and Ace of Base’s popular track “Beautiful Morning” begins playing...
“What a mystery, though the world's on fire.
Yesterday's hard words is still in my head.
I feel no despair, no regrets or sorrows,
'Cause this new day makes me dance on air.
(What a golden day.)
What a beautiful morning in my life.
The best in life is free.
I give it all away and I wonder what more is to come.
And this beautiful morning changed my mind.
Believe me when I say the shadows fading out.
As the day grows bright, we are turning pages,
And we write new chapters of our life.
Some are strong and long.
Others weak with sorrows.
Keep the focus on the rising sun.”

It’s like my I-pod sensed my mood and was trying to send out a message to me! It worked because I was happy and cheerful from that moment on...

And, if you still don’t believe that my I-pod is psychic then consider this:
A friend posted a note on Facebook, that described a little game... There were about 20 questions listed and the answer to each question is held in your music library...

The Game’s only rule: Play the songs on Shuffle Mode and hit next to get the answers to the question...

Here are my results for 17 of these 20 questions... It made perfect sense and 85% isn’t a bad hit rate!

1) What would best describe your personality?
Chopsuey by System of a Down
For the ignorant, Chopsuey in Chinese means “Mixed Pieces”... Go Figure!

2) What do you like in a boy?
Say it Right by Timbaland
Well, honestly, it is one of my most important “criteria”... There’s nothing more attractive than a well-spoken guy with intelligent points of view and witty repartee...

3) How do you feel today?
Dekho Nashe Mein from Race
High on Life! :)

4) What is your life's purpose?
Say (All i Need) by One Republic
What can I “say” to this now? Putting across my point of view may well be the purpose of my life. And the fact that this song has another name it goes by may not be a mere coincidence... Maybe the “All I Need” signifies my “Things To Do Before I Die” List! Hmmmm!

5) What is your motto?
Smile by Lily Allen
I can’t stop smiling, can I? *wink* *wink* Most of you are familiar with that mood... and a chosen few are familiar with the (sometimes silly) reasons for it!

6) What do you think about very often?
Pardesi from Dev D
*Some more winks* and a *wicked smile* followed by a *sigh*!

7) What do you think of your best friend?
The Reason by Hoobastank
Well, in a way, she is the voice of reason in my life!

8) What do you think of the person you like?
Aye Bachchu... from Ghajini
Heheheheheeheh.... AK... This one is for you!

9) What is your life story?
Hot and Cold by Katy Perry
Isn’t this true...? Ups and Downs; Can’t-stop-smiling to can’t-find-my-smile to can’t-stop-winking... From exciting to tedious... Life, surely does seem to come a full circle!

10) What do you want to be when you grow up?
Sound of Freedom by Bob Sinclair
Freedom! Yes! Oh YES! Independence and self sufficiency are 2 ideals I try to live by...

11) What do you think when you see the person you like?
Angels by Robbie Williams
I’ll just leave it as *loooooooooooooong sigh*

12) What do your parents think of you?
Losing My Religion by R.E.M.
Ask them if you don’t believe my I-pod!

13) What will you dance to at your wedding?
Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park
Well, I wouldn’t want to dance to this song at my wedding... I’d rather prefer Everything by Michael Buble followed by Sway (Yes, the same one that’s been my caller tune for 3 years now!) But, hey, I’m sure that “Somewhere I Belong” is definitely the feeling that will be washing over me!!!

14)What will they play at your funeral?
Khuda Jaane from Bachna Ae Haseeno
LOL! Need I say anything at all!

15) What is your hobby/interest?
Yeh Tumhari Meri Baatein from Rock On!!
At the risk of repeating myself, LOL! Need I say anything at all! I Talk!

16)What is your biggest secret?
Dancing Queen by ABBA
Yes, I confess, when everyone at home has gone to sleep, I play my music and dance alone!

17) What do you think of your friends?
Distance... by Karsh Kale
Well....... I sure as hell hope this is not true... But sometimes it is inevitable, isn’t it!

Fascinating, isn’t it? Does my I-pod know me or does my I-pod know me??!! Well, I am a staunch believer in signs, this only reinforces it... But irrespective of whether you have your own friendly i-pod or believe in signs, do try the game... It is a lot of fun...! Maybe you could share with me some of your answers, I would love to discuss the "Signs"!