Precarious

I look at the way things stand between us

And I can feel the balance has shifted

It’s so imperceptible that no one else can guess

That a little apart we’ve drifted

I look at the times we’ve shared and the way things are

And I sense a slight new awkwardness

We still talk and laugh and share

But there is that slight shift nonetheless

I know that you’re still a friend I can trust

And I can still feel the love and care

And this balance that has surely shifted seems unjust

I simply hope that it’s not a shift beyond repair

On the other hand...

I look at the way things stand between us

And I can feel the balance has shifted

It’s so imperceptible that no one else can guess

But it’s like the thin veil of doubt has lifted

I look at the times we’ve shared and the way things are

And I sense a slight new closeness

With a lot more ease we now talk and laugh and share

And I’m glad that we’ve made good progress

You’ve become a friend I can trust

And I can now feel the care and love

With you around, life doesn’t seem unjust

I simply hope that I won’t have to say to you the words above 

I Wonder...

I wonder, staring at your picture,

Whatever happened to our grand plans for the future?

But you chose a different life,

And now we’ve grown older.

Should I hold on to those dreams, I wonder...

I wonder, staring at the memory,

Whatever happened to the time when I was young and carefree?

But I chose to be responsible,

And those adventures now seem like a blunder.

Can I atone for my mistakes, I wonder...

I wonder, staring at what I have just written - these lines,

Whatever happened to all my designs?

But I’m still the same person,

And life has made me bolder.

What’s the point of regret, I wonder... 

The Easy Way Out...

Would my life be easier if

I had the courage

to take that smallest step

that could shatter the peaceful mirage?

Would my life be easier if

I had the nerve

to make that difficult decision

that could destroy illusions that others preserve?

Would my life be easier if

I had not one regret

About things said and done

To simply learn and accept, forgive and forget?

Would my life be easier if

I had not one care

About making a wrong move

To simply not let mistakes give me a scare?

Would my life be easier if

I had the strength

to simply breakaway from shackles

that hold me back from going the extra length?

Would my life be easier if

I were a little more selfish

To pave my own path, make my own choices

Live my dreams and do as I wish?

Answers to these I am still looking for

However this I know for sure

Life with all its difficulties isn’t at all bleak

If only the inherent goodness of every moment we seek.

In Pursuit

What is it that we wait for?

Will we ever find that elusive “something more”?

What is it that we so frantically seek?

Will we ever make it up the insurmountable peak?

What is that we’re afraid of?

Will we ever accept that which others scoff?

What is that we long for, yearn?

Will we ever learn to unlearn?

Chasing a future that is uncertain

Today’s small pleasures we shun

Chasing dreams that are evasive

Real moments we’ve forgotten to live

The “life” we always aspired has already begun

Manifesting itself in moments that come by the million

Today is the future that we once dreamed and designed

So, what is it that we’re still hoping to find? 

A Different Crossroads

There will be no tearful farewells

There will be no idealistic promises

To remain friends forever

There will be no wistful sighs and no one will cry

This will be a different goodbye!

There will be no clear directions

Only a million different options

Awaiting and beckoning are difficult paths

There will be no comforting beds, no welcoming abodes

This will be a different crossroads...

There will be no looking back

Decisions weighed in white or black

Choosing your own destiny, leading life

There will be no regrets, only living in the moment

This will be a different present.